I credit my maternal grandparents for an upbringing and foundation centered on Christ…
As far back as I can remember I’ve known there was a God. We went to church ALL the time, for worship service, Bible study, prayer, quarterly meetings, Pastor’s anniversary, etc. You name it, we were there.
When I turned eleven I decided that I wanted to be saved and baptized all on my own and I did just that. Back then I remember feeling like God really was walking right beside me, holding my hand and leading me where I should be and I felt so full of His love. Yes, even at the ripe age of eleven. I also remember a phase in high school when I use to walk around campus toting my Bible on top so people would know who I served without a doubt. I don’t think very many people even knew that or noticed, but one of my best friends can serve as a witness! Ha!!!
I say all that to say that my love for my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, is so ingrained in me that no matter what I do and how far I stray He knows my heart and keeps and covers me.
As I mentioned in my previous post, I’ve been going through quite a bit. Specifically with my marriage. We’d been keeping our problems to ourselves because we believe that it’s important to keep our business our own. I recognize that part of that (keeping everything to yourself) is a trick of the enemy because he doesn’t want you to seek help for your problems. But, at the same token, there are so many people that are just waiting for you to fail, so you have to pick and choose what to share and when to share it, if you even share it at all. I digress.
What I wanted to share is the fact that we hadn’t told a soul about our issues. However, three separate people, Mario’s grandmother, one of my best friend’s, Lindsay, and my aunt Tasha, all contacted me on three separate occasions letting me know that that they knew I was going through something and that the Lord had laid it on their hearts to pray for me and my family.
I want to cry right now just thinking about His love, His covering, His protection and His grace because I am so undeserving of it all. But those three signs, of His hand on my situation, alone have given me the assurance that everything is going to work out…according to His will.
It’s so comforting to know that even though I have so much work to do to rebuild my relationship with God that He’s never left me nor forsaken me as I’ve attempted to walk the path alone. I still don’t know what the future holds for so many things, including my marriage, but I know that God is going to be there every step of the way. And for right now, that’s enough!
Still happy,
It was wonderful to read your post. You were honest and I know that's not easy. I've been married for 12 years and I've learned a lot of lessons. One of them is that God is always there. Life is a wild ride. It has its ups and downs, but one thing remains consistent…God and His faithfulness.
I pray that your marriage would quickly be restored. As you wait on God remember what Romans 10:11 says. No one that believes in Him or puts their trust in Him, shall ever be put to shame.
I've been contemplating it for quite some time, but I think I just found my reason to blog about the lessons that I've learned in my marriage.
God bless you 🙂
Hi Nicole-
Thank you for sharing this post. This is my first time visiting your blog but I believe God led me to see this post as I have been struggling with many things for the past few months. I grew up in the church and I have always had a deep love for Christ,however, over that past few years things have been hard and I have doubted and lost my way. I know God has been more good to me than I think I deserve and for that reason I am working building a better relationship with God.
Thank you for being honest in your post as it's a reminder that we all go through stuff and It can be hard keeping things inside. I pray that your marriage is restored and that things will get better for you. God is faithful and He never leaves our side.
I asked God to bring positive people into my life and I am so happy I found your blog. I look forward to reading more. Thank you again for sharing.
Stay blessed,
Nakia
You have to find a balance. It really is your personal business between the two of you and too many voices in your ear could complicate matters but on the other hand you need to let it out and discuss it with someone other then him sometimes. Keep working hard at making it work.
Wow!!! God is so good! I'll be praying for you and your husband.