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“The theory describes “Type A” individuals as ambitious, rigidly organized, highly status-conscious, sensitive, impatient, take on more than they can handle, want other people to get to the point, anxious, proactive, and concerned with time management. People with Type A personalities are often high-achieving “workaholics” who multi-task, push themselves with deadlines, and hate both delays and ambivalence.”
-McLeod, Saul. “Type A Personality”
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Sometimes I feel like I’m carrying the weight of…well…everything, on my shoulders. Even before Mario’s appendix ruptured I would jokingly say, “I have to do everything”. I said it all the time. Like I said I’d say it jokingly, but we all know how jokes are. Oftentimes you sort of, kind of mean them. Right?!
It’s not that I’m actually doing everything or being forced to do everything. Mario is quite supportive. But…
I’m Type A.
Which is another way of saying that I stress myself out. I think that I need to get more and more and more done. I put a lot of pressure on myself. I constantly want to grow and accomplish much, yet at the same time I tend to think that I can be lazy so I push some more.
Sometimes this way of thinking weighs me down. I get overwhelmed. I feel tired. I don’t sleep well. Then I tweet things like this…
Some days I could just run away! #ijs
— Nicole Pharr (@pharr_away) October 1, 2014
I’m talking specifically about running away from responsibilities. We all want to grow up not truly understanding what growing up entails. Work, work and more work. From paying bills, to maintaining a home to progressing at work to teaching a child to respecting a spouse to serving my Lord and Savior. There is just so much to do and I want to do it all and do it well. Type A, remember!
I don’t think there is anything wrong with wanting to get things done and feel accomplished. I just need to learn not to “work” myself into a conniption, remember to share my load whenever possible and take notice of when I’m feeling overwhelmed before I actually get overwhelmed so that I can make adjustments.
Lastly, I need to get back to meditating on my favorite verses, Matthew 11:28-30, and I don’t know…shift my weight to God.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” -Matthew 11:28-30, NIV
Hone in,
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